”vulnerable

i know from the start things wont work out… friends told me to give it a try and why notttt. there was no reason not to.. how could we possibly feel feelings that will never stay. demnit! i should not be in love with you.. i should never loved you. Like how fcking amusing how my heart responses to whatever you say, i mean those are only words. i used to think that yes, i was just like that since i am very bored hanging without anyone.. without someone. but as time passes.. feelings are getting worst. how can i let someone in and occupies all of me. whyyyyyyyyy??????